Lucinda Ruh - Official Website

This page on this site is a message from Lucinda Ruh. This is a little of her true story, of the obstacles she has overcome, the adversity she has been through and the life lessons she has learnt and the message she wishes to convey to the world. This is her true mission away from the spotlight. The behind the scenes that has never been told before. To be able to be a spokesperson of her message and to help people of any race and age around the world learn from her story is her true passion and destiny on this earth.

Blessings to my friends from all around the world. This is my favorite part of my site, yet the one that took the most courage. My real story, my real life behind the spinning and spotlight on the ice has never been told before, nor do even my closest friends know until now. The facts you know, like I was born in Zurich Switzerland and lived all around the world spending all of my childhood in Tokyo, Japan and then lived in China, Canada, Europe, Middle East and the USA, and yes, I am a skater and spin very fast but, these have all been told before and I think my life behind the scenes is my true essence of life.

This story is what made me able to spin fast and skate the way I did. Do you know what I really lived through? What I really had to overcome? My life in front of the media may seem a charmed and perfect life. BUT, this is not the truth and until now I have never exposed this part of my life. I never saw myself as an athlete but only as an artist and I came to realize that it is now time to speak the truth. Be the spokesperson to what I believe in and to what I have gone through so that no one else has to go through with what I did. This is not a story to scare you, of self pity, wanting pity or regret of any kind, but of wanting to be an inspiration and a role model and to speak the truth. My whole story would never fit on one page so I will just tell a little here. My mission is to speak and help children and people of all ages worldwide, go to schools, write my book... spread my message in any way I can.

I have always been a fish out of water, always the odd one out, the one that didn't belong anywhere, the one who never was accepted. I don't feel anywhere is my home. My family became a very close knit family as of this because every time we moved, everything around me would change but the only thing that stayed constant was my mother and father. So my connection with my parents is extremely close. That was the only thing I had.

When I was little I skated, did ballet, played the cello and piano. I was busy full time growing up with not a second to spare for childhood. Homework, nap time and mealtime was all done in the car going to and from the ice rink. Wake up time was 4 am and bedtime was 11 pm. With a German Swiss upbringing and living in a Japanese society the discipline and structured way of living was extreme.

At school and at the rink I was bullied and teased as I always lived in a foreign country so I never fit in. I was physically and emotionally mistreated. I was put in many political situations beyond my control and even what I did on the ice wasn't justified and prevented me from being an Olympian!

I trained nonstop through injury or illness never speaking up for myself for if I did there would be big consequences. I was secondary and my skating was who I became associated with. The training and spinning became excruciating and taking a huge toll on my body. With serious injury after injury my body started to break down. I could no longer compete at the amateur level due to the fractures in my spine and pain in my whole body and so I turned professional.

I performed through pain and as my professional life progressed I got more and more ill. I was at the hospital all the time when I wasn't on ice for the shows and I skated until I couldn't walk for I thought as long as I could get on that ice and spin I would stay alive.

Spinning was my escape from reality for it was like a meditation for me where no one could touch me. But I did not prevail and my body and mind went through a physical breakdown and now without the spinning I was lost. I felt like I was dying of emotional exhaustion and physical overtraining. My body froze and for five years I was unable to function and I lay in bed unable to move, pick up the telephone, shower, walk outside and some days barely talk. It felt like my body was in a coma. I floated above my head and just watched my body lay there. My brain had suffered ongoing brain concussions due to the extreme speed of the spinning and I was left exhausted from exhaustion. It has been calculated that the G force to my brain while I was in a spin was the same force as to a fighter pilot!

This is when my true journey began. Too much time, emotions and money was spent on my medical care and to this day nothing helped because nothing was really wrong with me.. it was emotional and just plain fatigue from overtraining. What changed my life was the determination I had in me to speak the truth and go through the incredibly painful healing process of what had happened to me. I promised myself I would go through every healing crisis and feel every emotion until I was healed. I had gotten myself into this and so I will be able to pull myself out of it.

It has taken me five long years of healing to get to where I am today and my goal was not to become a new person but to go back to who I was when I was born. That innocent spirit that I knew was living in me. That was my inspiration. That joy of life and to cherish each second, each emotion each day! We all are born with our true spirit and people and society can corrupt us but this spirit always stays with you and all you have to do is be able to recognize that THAT is truly you and have the courage and strength to be who you were born to be.

Go back to your spirit. My story from unknown to known and back and forth and the true meaning of happiness and finding balance in your life is what I wish to share with the world. I have so much to tell and my compassion lies in the wish to help people all around the world. With light and love. If I can inspire or help even one precious human spirit in this world my mission is accomplished.

I feel so fortunate, lucky and blessed that I got a second chance at life and now to be able speak about my story, my mission and my experiences to help people all around the word is my true destiny and the real reason I am on this earth. I am filled with excitement and joy and happiness for this mission and I hope to inspire you all and that you can all learn from my life. I speak form the heart and only the truth. Only when the ocean throws a storm will it leave a pearl on the beach. I have found my pearl and you can too.

If I can do it you can too and I want to share the meaning of life with all. My parents always instilled in me that to be a champion in life is much more important than any medal and that is what I live to tell. Find something you love and have a passion for and grab it and make it your trademark but never let it take over YOU and always treasure yourself and treat yourself like a delicate flower. BE YOU. Thank you for reading a part of my true story.

With Love and Light,

Lucinda

Lucinda is in the midst of writing her book and hopes to have it published by the end of 2010.

If you wish to hear more about her story and her way back to life and happiness please contact Lucinda Ruh on her contact page. Speaking engagements, a book or a documentary is welcomed as well.